Friday, February 5, 2010

This few days really brought me down to my knees.
But thanks to friends around me,mentally and physically helped me out through everything.
Thanks brothers&sisters.
Was quite traumatised through everything.

Today,bad luck didn't end.
My grandfather passed away.
I am really brought down to me knees.
For my whole life,this 17 years.
Me,wang wen jie have never felt to helpless before.

It's like me standing on a pole.
As time goes by,walls start to erode.
Leaving me panic on top of it.
Anytime I might fall.
I'm really tired.
Very tired.
I could break down anytime.
Serious.
God,please don't make fun of me anymore.
Stop taking lifes away from me.


Baby,it's not your fault.
Just take it it's my fault.
Taking up this responsibility,hope you cherish me more.

Now,so many things happened.
I seriously could break down anytime.
I'm like a dead leaf on a tree.
A light blow could blow me off.
But I've got branches holding on to me.
Which are my closest friends&baby.

You all are really good friends.


Sigh,don't know what is wrong with me.
Now,finally.
this message below is for my grandfather.



When I was young,You held me by my hands.
Swinging me from your legs up and down.
It's been 17 years.
I failed,my duty,as a grandson.
You were my cloest when I was young.
You would talk to me about reasons in life.
As times goes by,things change,grandpa.
My family broke apart leaving broken puzzles.
Now I regret,not having to visit you more often.
I remembered,1 week ago I visited you at NUH.
You were lying on the bed.
Flashingback,You were big size with a tummy back years ago.
But now ,all I see was bones.
It hurts.
I remember when I left.
I turned back to look at you.
You sat down there with evening light brimming through the window.
I almost cried.
But I pulled my tears back down.
I know,if I were to cry,you will be very unwilling to leave this world in peace.
Ah gong,I failed you.
Last of all,
I remember saying,"Come back and reunite and have dinner with us."
All you said was,"I'll try."


Grandpa,,may you rest in peace.
I love you.

wang wen jie blogged at 12:06 PM

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